Looking at my attitude towards you over the years, I don't know whether I think I am a good man or a incompetent man; I believe that there is no man in the world who can stand the betrayal of his lover five times, but I think I am amazing when I do it; but I think the most pathetic person in the world, I am the first, no one can dare to be the second, because of that. I've worn five green caps for you, and I'm still passionately devoted to you.

想着这些年来，我对你的态度，我不知道说认为自己是一个好男人，还是一个无能的男人；我相信，天底下没有一个男人，能够忍受得了自己的爱人背叛五次，可是我做到了，我觉得我很了不起；可是我想天底下最可悲的人，我是第一，没有人可以敢是第二了，因为我戴了五顶绿帽，还对你一往情深。

 

Anyway, I really hope you can save me some face. Since the rich have no chance with you, then you will die! Good company with me, I believe that although our economy is worse, but I love you no less than others; because I have been unable to toss, tired, if you and I, again the same thing; I will not be able to stay in place, waiting for you to return.

不管如何，我真的希望，你能给我留一点面子吧！既然有钱的人跟你无缘，那么你就死心吧！好好的陪在我的身边，我相信尽管我们经济差一些，但是我对你的爱一定不比别人少；因为我已经折腾不起了，也累了，如果你我之间，再出现一次同样的事情；我一定不可能停留在原地，等着你归来。

 

Honey, can you feel my painful heart?

亲爱的，你能体会到我痛苦的心吗？

 

I have always loved you.

一直爱你的景山

 

October 5, 2019

2019年10月5日